Posts Tagged 'God'


take my body, build it up

may it be broken as an offering of love

i have nothing,… i have nothing

without You

all i once held dear..

I’m currently enrolled, and will be graduating early (possibly to obtain a Masters) of the #1 Applied & Engineering Physics program in the nation. On my desk are two fed-ex envelopes, both offers for the summer, envelopes filled with promises of internships & wealth (kind of). I sit, typing at my semi-ancient (but still functional) labtop computer, with electrical lighting, in a nicely heated apartment in the continental United States.

The world tells me I have everything it could offer,

but i beg to differ.
i want more.

i think sometimes i get so caught up
in this notion of what’s GOOD and what’s GOOD for me,
me who is so selfish and weak and wanting the attention
and fame and glory of some prestigious internship position. maybe
just maybe, thats why this semester has been so nerve wracking
with notions of THE CALLING and maybe how i’ll fail God
by going the engineering route, or how i might fail my parents
by going the staff worker route, or how i have no clue
what i’m supposed to be doing anymore, and i just need
to let go
and let God
tell me what’s best. 


I had a dream of this song, being sung in a harmony of voices and instruments during praise:

oh, how we long to be with You
You are our joy and our crown
and we, take delight in Your presence
oh how we love You
oh how we love You


in the midst of a week bookended with interviews, career fair, & thoughts of the future looming upon us,…. it’s good to know His presence is the source of true joy & delight.

college students

random thought:

There are times when I wish I could just grab some of these college kids by the shoulders and tell them straight to their face that their God loves them, that their God adores them and has gone to such great lengths to passionately chase after them, and that there is a God who is bigger than problem sets and prelims and final exams and if they could just see that, if we could just see that,…. and that I can see myself doing it to youth group kids and seeing how four years later we’re all just that young, oh so very young and in need of our Savior,…

//end thought