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fresh

because everyone deserves a new beginning.

king

I’m currently at orientation for my trip this summer and in compeletely in awe of what a healer, Lord, provider, and comforter the God I serve and delight in is. See you in two months USA!

currently

If i had a Twitter, I would be currently:

– working on my last problem set for 606

– figuring out email prayer updates for the Edge

– researching thai cuisine & traditional dress

– on blackboard downloading lectures

– writing solar sailing simulation in matlab

– looking up relient k lyrics with itunes open

– checking email — gmail open in background

– in duffield.

 

and who said multitasking was ineffective? :P

phdizzle

It’s a sad day when I see An Extended Navier-Stokes and the Challenges of Relativistic Fluid Dynamics for Speed of Light Travel on aiaa.org, get excited, understand the proposal, and desire to contribute further to this topic.

Days like these I still wonder what I’m pursuing with my life. As a follower of Christ I believe that my ultimate pursuit is to glorify God and enjoy Him forevermore (WC). Yet what does that mean in a world of careers, ambitions, and goals? How does that translate to someone who is wholeheartedly implanted in the boroughs of Clark Hall where the physicists live? 

Then there’s the further question of being a woman in such fields, with conflicting desires of solving the energy crisis and taking care of (future) children. How do these desires not conflict??

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Maybe it’s just the thought that I graduate in two months. May seems like a black hole from this view and I’m just sucked in… swoosh… swoosh….. gravity increases… time slows… radiation.. event horizon!!!…

 

._.

pressing on

because i need to hope that God is bigger than this.

 

 

 

ps. I accepted a job (and turned down MIT). but, LA-bound!

never

..Love never ends… — 1 cor 13:8.

 

because it’s just like You
to turn these broken things into new

in christ alone

There is a richness in what it means to know Him when the perils of hell are close at hand. This past weekend, I was able to participate in an inter-faith in which only 4-5 Christians… out of over 100 differing people, representing over 20 faiths. And as I am sitting there, slowly chewing on my naan and hummus, listening to how all religions really lead to the same place, people sharing about their odd dietary restrictions that bring them joy, everyone sharing and noddly gleefully or that certain truths that may work for one person may not work for another person, I found myself saying something similar to the following:

“Hey guys… I have a question for you. I know this dinner tonight is to promote interfaith and peace and learning and I’m all for that but… I fail to see how all religions are supposed to ultimately be the same. In our pursuit for truths within religions, how can all religions which hold very different truths all lead to the same God?”

*blank stares*

“So for example — the persona of Jesus. In three of the Abrahamic religions which easily constitute half the population of the world, He is a radically different person. In Judaism, he’s a mere historical figure — a person who lived and died. In Islam, he is a prophet yes, but nowhere near in status as Mohammed. In Christianity, He is the son of a living God who has lived, died for our sins and was resurrected. How can these all be truth?”

I think my proclamation shocked most of my table which consisted of: a buddhist monk, a mormon, a roman catholic, a unitarian, a christian scientist, a jew, a hindu, and a roman catholic/explorer of faiths. Even if I were not a Christian, I simply do not believe how any truth can be relative! It’s like ‘choosing’ to adhere to the laws of gravity or not. On Monday during lunch, I tried explaining to a dear friend of mine why I share the gospel with her every year even though she shoots it down — If I didn’t try sharing this truth with you, I would either be a liar or a hypocrite — a liar because I simple don’t care about your soul and what happens to you when you die, or a hypocrite — that I don’t believe that Jesus Christ is a universal truth that affects the entire world.

 

I hope the Lord can grant me this kind of urgency as I enter almost my last semester as a college student…. I remember one of my deepest regrets from high school was not being bold enough in the faith. 

 

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there are these times
when i know You are good
and sovereign and worth it

 

but these times i find myself asking
are You worth the sacrifice

shame
disownment
letting down my professors, my peers,… the world?

in CHRIST alone….

i’ll take care of you

This past weekend, one of my favorite couples got engaged!! (they just graduated from Cornell this past May). The bride-to-be is a dear friend of mine whom I’ve been walking and serving alongside of for the past 2.5 years while at school, and the groom was actually helping to lead the first small group I ever joined at GCF! So both of them are both very near and dear to my heart and I’m so so excited to see what the Lord has in plan for the both of them as a couple. What’s kind of crazy is that they’re both less than a year away from college! Sometimes it’s really that surreal how close I am to graduating and entering a very real world of work, life, and weddings yay :)

 

… and of course, after spending most of the day with them (and dozens of surprised yet joyful people), the first question everyone has to ask is, ‘So when are YOU getting engaged?’

forget december

I just realized this may be my last white Christmas (for a long time). I know it shouldn’t matter that much anyway, but that is quite sad! Growing up in the midwest has gotten me used to white Christmases and building snow blobs (somehow the sophistication to make actual peoples never came….) and somehow a slightly chilly Christmas in Los Angeles doesn’t sound quite as appealing right now.

If I had my way, I’d live in the northern burbs and go to Trinity part-time while flying satellites during the day and go to Cubs games on weekends (woohoo playoffs!!!). I’ve spend significant amounts of time in LA, San Diego, San Jose, NYC, Baltimore & Orlando, yet nothing is quite like… Chicawgo :)

re: senior year

I remember senior year. I spent half of the year frustrated at people, life, ministry, and church…. and the other half crawling into the throne of the King asking for wisdom, forgiveness, and a means to obey. Senior year I had some of the most magnificent fights of my being (‘Why can’t WE have 10,000?!?’) and some of the most reconciling, truth-infused relationships I’ve ever been in. Senior year I was always running around — from JETs to all the AP classes I took to finishing my 11 college apps to Yearbook to SWAVT to Lincoln and to Willowbrook. I remember senior year.

And as I start my second senior year… those same feelings come rushing back to me. Who knows, maybe it’s some sort of cyclic lessons that reinitiate every four years or something. Except I can already see one huge difference from then and now…. Then I was scared and was motivated through pleasing and finding acceptance and praise from my leaders. Now,… I am rebellious and tend to question, critique and don’t seem to really care what they think of me at all.

Such changes will surely make for a very.. very different senior year.

I miss CCMC. I wouldn’t trade my last senior year for the world.

Senior year, here we go…